bad beginnings make happy endings

2010-03-21T01:57:00.003+08:00

Baby, say the words and we'll just disappear.

2010-03-20T01:13:00.003+08:00

Never really wanted things to turn out this way. Too many things are weighing on my mind and the least I expected you to do was to be there(yes, you were there. am i making any sense) and not fall asleep. I know you had a long tiring day at work and I can’t help being a bitch. I was never understanding to begin with and I’m pretty much unreasonable. And even if you claim that I am not and you have your qualms about it, it won’t change a single bit because I know myself best. Sometimes I really want to share it with you but I just can’t find the right words to bring the message across. Tonight, I just want to be left alone. Can I?

I hate every particular thing that I do. I hate myself when I am in the very-very-very-spoiled-state. I hate my not-so-understanding-ness. I hate my irrational behaviour. I've come to realise that it was all my fault from the start. From the time we fall out with each till now, its my mistake.

I'm exhausted.

I really shouldn’t be such a bitch at times.

2007-09-30T18:52:00.001+08:00

Everyday is so stagnant. O's are in one weeks plus time, and what am I still doing. Just tell me. Not motivated to study. Even if I do study, nothing goes into my mind. It's just in and out. Dear God, please help me to feel the rush, and the need to study for O levels. Make me feel motivate. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

2007-03-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

Catch me @ LJ.

2007-03-06T16:45:00.001+08:00

Fill in the blanks. I feel like __ now. I feel so __ by ___. ___ is having some fun while I'm at a __ state. Holds a bunch of flowers and chants - he loves me, he loves me not. Yeah. Finally got back my mp3. Which means no more lonely bus rides to school! School hasn't been any better. Nowadays, I dread going to school. I can bloody hell wait to graduate from that school, not. I think I'm just attending for the sake of attending. And of course, friends. I realise I haven't been revising. Just by doing assignments is not enough, never enough. So I guess I shall hit my books now. It's going to be a long day tomorrow. Sigh. Dear C, Everything was never enough. Sigh. Love, E. - Always said I would know where to find love, Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough, But some times I just felt I could give up. But you came and changed my whole world now, I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see, what love means.

2007-03-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

This may be very random. But I don't care.
Through the ups and downs, we managed to pull through. I Love them all.

2007-03-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

Lets play oblivious. When one person is all so excited to meet her beloved, waiting, sitting - nothing seems to get her attention. Then the sky seems to get darker, still waiting patiently. After waiting, the person withdraws himself. Can you feel the resentment that the person waiting is feeling? Yeah. I’m feeling so farked up now. Maybe there’s one thing that you should know, I hate quarrelling with you. Though everytime we quarrel, the next instant we’ll be perfectly fine again, it’s the impact that’s left on my heart. I’m still crying inside and plays to be happy on the exterior. I’m very afraid to lose you. Sighs.
Drink, anyone ?

No more empty promises please.

2007-03-03T15:33:00.003+08:00

I thought I would say bye to Blogspot and hello to Livejournal. But I'm naive in Livejournal. So yeah, shall just stick to Blogspot. Furthermore, it's user friendly. Have been meeting dearest lately. And I'm loving it. Cause his holidays are all mine. Solely mine. Its love with capital L

2007-02-24T13:34:00.000+08:00

Finally got to meet Baby yesterday. I've been such a naughty girl, I gave school a miss. =( Went to fetch him up and we headed to tamp(as usual). I'm rather sick of that place. I said I'm sick of that place, but strangely, I'd still been going there for plentiful of times. Prolly because its near my place. Caught Norbit. That flick is a total bore lah. It was a waste of money, really. I wanna catch Epic movie the next time. Baby decided to have dinner at Airport's Swensen. And guess what, Swensen was crowded with people. As a result, we just settled for Macs. Rah. And something happened. No, I won't divulge. Reached home around 11plus cause I stubbornly didn't want to alight at my stop. Sat all the way to Changi Village. No lah, actually I wanna spend more time with Baby. Laughs. Alright, need to prepare myself now. I'm going to my cousin house and Long Beach at night. Uncle's treating. Whahaha. =)

I want to make you the happiest person ever.

I.Love.You

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
Your finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

2007-02-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

God did answer my prayer. I'm recovering so well now. Hello baby, I wanna watch Norbit! Lol. Chinese New Year doesn't seem like Chinese New Year to me at all. Places I went to, didn't have the Chinese New Year atmosphere. Guess last year was much better whereby we get to gamble and win money. Real money hor! Duh. Sighs. I miss bf so damn much lah. I want to see you soon ok ? =) Why not, now. Hmmm. Lol.

Hao ai hao ai ni oh.

2007-02-17T14:00:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Please heal me from the flu and sore throat I'm having now. Its been three days already. I want to get away from this uncomfortable-ness. This feeling had never been good. ): Amen.

Love, Me.

Been meeting Baby since wednesday? Haha. Yesterday went to consult doctor and headed to tamp to watch movie. Wanted to catch Epic Moive, but but but, the timing not right plus its crowded with so many people. So we watched Just Follow Law(?!). Comical and amusing enough. After which went to meet my mum and sister. Had our nails done. Mummy bought new phone lor. So unfair! I wanna change my phone too, soon. Lol. Bet they will even allow. Hmpf. Had dinner at Jack's Place. The service there sucks lah! They are super unpolished. Headed home at around ten. Yeah. Gramm's coming over later. Rahh. I wonder what is Baby doing ? ):

Ily.

2007-02-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

RAH RAH RAH.

Happy Valentine's Day to one and all. (:
I love my baby.

2007-02-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

I fell sick at the later part of the day. I felt so heavy and giddy. Sighs. Thought Baby could at least comfort me. But it turned out to another way round. Now he is ignoring me for asking him to go away ? Fact is. I hate it so much. But he just continues after messaging him four times. I'm sick and I had to pacify him. A girl with fever can. Sighs. I somehow just can't get your care and concern huh. But still, I'm so damn sorry for asking you go away. Don't feel like going to school tml! I'm burning hot. ): But there's standard test tml which I had yet to study. FARK. Sighs.

I love you.

2007-02-12T20:01:00.000+08:00

I'm so annoyed can. RAHHHHH. !@#$%^&* Forgive me. Hilda understands what I'm going through now cause I’ve been droning to her all day. =(

You say you're looking for happiness
But when it comes, you runaway from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do
Now the rest is up to youUntil you love yourself, you'll never change
You'll keep on runningUntil you deal with today

2007-02-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

Kiss Goodnight.

=(

2007-02-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

A wonderful day isn't it? Met baby at town. Haven been seeing him for like ages due to his hectic schedules. =( RAH. He bought me a watch from stamps and a levis belt. Now, we've got couple watch. Laughs. Thanks darling, I’m loving it ok. =) Trained down to tamp with him and had our dinner. I left to meet lee lee. Caught MissPotter. I don't really like it, but over all its watchable. Bought stuffs and home sweet home. Tired can!

I love you. =)

2007-02-10T10:43:00.001+08:00

E : A good kisser.
S : Easy to fall in Love.
L : Loved by eveyone.
Y : One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for.
N : Dead sexy.
N : Dead sexy.
HAHA. Another bulletin.

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Because every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes.

2007-02-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

Today was the collection of 'O' level results. So perplexing, I don’t even know if I want to continue studying. I'm not ready to put that bountiful effort into studies. Yet, I don't want to waste one year of nothing. I need someone to motivate me to study can! I don't want to blubber when I'm collecting results next year. =( Eslynn, buck up.. RAH. I regret not going parkway to meet my mum. All of a sudden I just feel like snipping off my 'long long' hair. I'm at home alone la! And I'm so going on a diet. I misss youuuuu. Sighs. It seems like this is the first time i recieve such treatment. -pouts

"Stay with me."

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you

2007-02-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow and each road leads you where you want to go. If you're faced with the choice and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. If one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walking till you find the window. If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile. My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. You never need to carry more than you can hold and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you. Very much.

2007-02-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

Say it right, like you mean it.

I wanted so much to ask you to stay, but I know I can't.
I'm such a hopeless girl who is so much in love with you.
So many mistakes I've made. I'm sorry.

-

SIGHS. ='(

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark

2007-02-06T19:42:00.000+08:00

This whole week is covered with tests. Test and more test. Faints. Candidly speaking, I think that Chen Wei Hong is not a qualified Chinese teacher. Maybe she has what it takes to be a Chinese teacher. But, still I don’t think she is good. She should just be in charge of the lower sec. She has no way to handle us. All she does is flash the answer on the visualiser and let us copy. What’s the point lah! Might as well we do something more purposeful and not just sit there and copy answer. She ravages plenty of time to get us settled. She has this irritating look on her face, and the more I see her the more I hate her. HMPF.

-

Sometimes, I feel that I’m too childish for you. =( But I don’t care. I love you gorgeous.

FIREWORKS.
I know, you know, that I know you love me.

2007-02-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just want to dump myself in the rubbish bin.
Sometimes, I wish a car would run me down.
Sometimes, I wish I was a little smarter.
Sometimes, I wish I can stay out late.
Sometimes, I wish upon a falling star.

I'm better off dead.

2007-02-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

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Yue kan yue shun yan. Laughs. - only hilda and rhoda understands right ? =)

2007-02-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

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Pissed to the max.

2007-02-04T13:08:00.001+08:00

Where do I start? How do I start?

Sighs. I hate myself for loving you too much. I really do. I reckon that I’ve only myself to blame. For not being able to let you go or even the faculty to overlook you. This affair isn’t just like the others I had back. Its so diverse. You asked me to forget you. You jolly well know its almost not viable. My heart; like a thousands of sharp object knife-like through. I’m not going to ask you to stay anymore.

Out to raffles city later with mum and sister.
Argh. She's pissing me off. Good riddance.

What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?

My Only One.

2007-02-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

Late afternoon, headed to marina square with Rhoda. Shopped till 6plus and left to tamp to meet Hilda. Had dinner at pasta mania. Went to play bishi bashi. =) Fun. Argh, what a spoiled day.

I feel like im such a let down. Sighs.

I wanna shout out to the whole world that;
I love you so so so so farking much.

2007-02-03T12:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was magnificent. Except for one thing, Rhoda and I were late. If only we could jaywalk then we wouldn't be late. And I must say Mrs Chong is so farked up. Argh. No biology test cause the class protested for quite long ? Some showed dissatisfaction. Which somehow could be so annoying. Had POA supp class after school. Imagine this.

Mdm kee : girls you're late.
Hilda, Rhoda and I : we're not late, we reached the same time as you.
Mdm Kee : -rushes to open the door first- to prove that we are late.
Hilda : -pushes Mdm kee with her hands-
Mdm Kee : how dare you, Hilda!

Lol. I was aghast by what Hilda did. But it was so comical. Afterwhich bathe and changed and went to look for the boy. Its so not me to be there without you asking me to be. He doesn't believe that I waited for him alone. Sometimes I just feel like slapping him. Argh. Love la love.

Anyway, lollipop is my love! Its Rhoda and Hilda's love too. We are love rivals. Digressing, Lolli is such a H-e-r-o. =)

I want piggyback! -pouts.
That night at the beach.

2007-02-01T19:43:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start thanking the Lord, for blessing me with such a sweet little boy. Someone that I didn't know from the start. Now, became a part of me. Being with you, never had been any better. You taught me so many things, that I start to learn. Never to take things for granted. We must know how to give and take. Adapting to your everyday life is new to me. On the contrary, I'm willing to try. When I'm with you, you make me feel like as if Im still a small girl. Haha. I like and miss that feeling. I like it when you feed me. I like it when you lock your hands with mine. I like it when you plant kisses on my forehead. I like it when you hug me from the back. I like it when you call me darling. I like it when you hold my hands tight. I like it when you tickle me, sometimes though. I like it when you make me laugh. I like it when you laugh at my silly and lame jokes. I like it when you surprise me outside my house. I like it when you prepare breakfast for me, feel so loved. I like it when we argue about ludicrous stuffs. I like every single detail about us. Being with you has been a bountiful experience.
I love you. Every single facet about you, I love.

-

Had science physics practical today after school. After which tamp-ed with hilda, rhoda and mable. We started talking about the past and present. Omg. There's like two upcoming test tml which is english and biology. I've yet to study. Sighs. =( How I wish I'm intelligent, intelligent till I need no studying. Lol. Ok. Goodbye.

How to save a life.

2007-01-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

YAY. Reminiscing childhood. Feeling like a little girl once more. Wheeeeee.

dogs eat grass, they do they do. lol.

You're my sexy love.

2007-01-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

Alright. That picture was wonderfully drawn, ~~not~~ by Yvonne. Haha. Aiya, its the thought that counts. =) School was alright. But one message just spoiled everything. I tried to hold back my tears, but couldn't. I felt so embarrassed. ''Sorry baby.'' I don't think I need your apologies. When everything is my fault.

Digressing, Hilda just slam the door without noticing my arm was there. ''Bang'', my skin tored. Ok, not so kua zhang lah. Its only a small part. ): But it hurts ok. Skipped Chinese supp class. Didn't felt like going ? So headed down to tamp with Mab, Rhoda and Hilda. Had lunch and home sweet home. Carol and I had a bet. I'm so sure she'll lose. And ultimately, she'll be the one presenting me with lollis.

C, Imy.

I'm taking a step back.

2007-01-28T12:52:00.000+08:00

You are the littleboy made for me in the stars. In the stars, that's why I can't let you go. The little boy made for me in the stars. That's why I love you more the further I go. And before this existence you were always there. Waiting for me. You are, the realest thing I know.

Nelly Furtado - All things come to an end

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Miss everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

2007-01-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

Footprints in the sand.

One night I had a dream. I was walking along the beach with Lord, and across the skies flashed scenes from my life. On each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One was mine, and one was the Lord's. When the last scene of my life appeared before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand, and, to my surprise, I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. And I noticed that it was at lowest and saddest times in my life, asked the Lord about it: "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk with my all the way. But I notice that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why you left my side when I needed you the most". The Lord said: "My precious child, I never left you during your time of trial. Where you see only one set of footprints, I was carrying you."

My tummy is rambly for something sweet. Perhaps a honey treat. (only hilda knows this, right?) Laughs.

I love you so. ):

2007-01-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

I'm redundant. Right right right ? Blahh. Waiting for time to pass quickly. Lol.

You are my sunshine My only sunshine You make me happy When skies are grey You'll never know dear How much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away

2007-01-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

Everythings my fault lah. I'm such a inept gf. So useless till i can't do anything. I gave my best already. Really.

I thought you were my fairytale.
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

2007-01-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

I so don't feel like going school tml! Thought of skipping school tml, but i've got accounts test. How great. And we'll be going for tp's open house lah. This is the second time?! Boring like .. no comments. Went city hall with hilda. And had dinner at billy's. Alright. And i waited for the bus for like half an hour?! I was so farking pissed lah! Omg. Now, i don't even feel like doing my lit. I'm having a headache. ~~Heartache. Backache.~~

I'm sorry for being so rude. I'm sorry for flaring up at you. I'm sorry for ending your call. I was grouchy and crabby. I was worn-out. But all you could do was just to irritate me with questions about the guys talking in the background. I didn't mean it, sorry.

So farked up!

2007-01-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

If I told you
I loved you
Would it move you enough
To even act as if you've heard?

If I said I was leaving
Would you still find a reason
To ignore my every word?

2007-01-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

I think I'm still in a honeymoon period. I just can't get started. As in start to mug real hard. And this year, is a crucial year for me. Someone help me can. =( I always come home so shagged and worn-out. Till I'm in no mood to cram. SIGHS. Eeeee. Mosquito bites! =( Stop biting me lah! RAHHHH.

Iloveyou!

2007-01-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

Journey through together;
Dearest, thanks for everything. I really appreciate it. Regardless of the quarrels we had, you still loved me unconditionally. Maybe I wasn't aware of what you did for me, but I realized it just. Perhaps, I was just so caught up with myself. You, who is willing to sacrifice your sleeping time just to send me to school. Doing things just to please me. The way you called me retarded although I don't like it. And start to beat you upon hearing that. The way you hook your hand over mine up on the bus. How you like to change song whenever I'm listening to it and telling you not to change, you still did. GRRRR. Preparing breakfast for me, when I requested for it. The way you pretend to be heated and look away whenever I turn to you. The way you act like a little small boy. Lol. Well, I'm thankful to have you. Someone so special and dear to me. I want a lifetime with you ok? Love you.

I want to get so many new things! Lol. Headed to tamp with hilda today and met mable and victoria after. Went lp to have our dinner and started talking about the commerce proj. -.- Cabbed home with hilda and mable after. ARGH. Gonna start on my homework now. Sighs.

Mel & Rhoda: You two cheer up ok! =)

2007-01-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

Headed down to town yesterday with two darlings. Hilda and mable. =) Had lunch at Fareast. Our lunch was sure to be pricey eh! Walked around Fareast and down to Lucky plaza. Cause Hilda wants to buy her stuffs. Hmmm. Afterwhich we went to heeren, took prints. Along came mable friend. Down to wisma and we went our separate ways. I'm still considering whether to get either the flesh imp or the check bag. And I think I'll settle for the check bag though its 90bucks! Sighs.

But some times I just felt I could give up.

2007-01-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

I feel like giving up. ARGH.

Irreplaceable
To the left
To the left

Baby i need you here; now, but you're walking away. SIGHS.

2007-01-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

You got my temperature rising like El-Nin Yo.

Bee, JE VOUS AIME.

2007-01-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

Thank you love. For everything that you did. You never fail to make me smile. Take for example, today. You surprised me. And did I tell you I like surprises!? Lol. I was really flabbergasted when I saw you. Glad that you made the effort to come all the way down at an earthly hour. Laughs. I love you!

Alright. I am really tired today, cause I slept kinda late yesterday. And I don't practice that often. So silly called me up. Okay. Cabbed to school with additional appendage of two bread. Started school right. After school, went to the coffee shop to have lunch with the wonderful girlfriends. We were late for the self-study thingy. And Mrs Joseph make a big ruckus out of it. Apparently, we are to change our skirts, that's what the school rules says! Ludicrous can! I can imagine myself in that skirt looking retarded. Laughs. Went home after, of course. Too weary to go anywhere. Blah. Camp Corri! =) Sorry, I'm too keyed up.
My wish, to hug you all night.

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
What would you do?

If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
Tell me would you?

So where's the contract that you said you'll do up.

YOU'RE OH SO SWEET CAN. TSK.

2007-01-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

Was the decision i made right? Cause it doesn't seem to reflect upon you that with me or not, it doesn't matter. I hope i'm not making the wrong decision. Sighs.

More vodka please.

2007-01-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

Last cry and you'll be out of my mind.

SIGHS. Met ht, eileen, lt, edmund, amanda and a guy at tamp today. They are funny bunch of people. At least they cheered me up. Then later eileen went home with me. The things bottled inside me i told her. Heh. Sighs. And since i said i wanna drink, she gave me a bottle of vodka. Thanks girl. RAHHHHHH. I'm so not in the mood to blog. =( Sighs.

I swear that this made me h o t.

2007-01-06T12:21:00.000+08:00

From next week onwards, school ends at 3.30. Practically everyday! Except tuesdays. I so don't like it! Yesterday mab and hilly came my house. I bathe and change and out we went. Headed to tamp. Bought books and grab a bite at pasta mania. Met my mum first too. After which, i met you. You amaze me. Out later. asdfghjkl

Thank God i found you.

2007-01-04T17:58:00.000+08:00

Its only the second day of school and there's homework already. RAHHHHHH. Okay. Only one subject though. Which is literature! kksnafjksdhfjsdf. I don't wanna read the text. I'll have to squint my eyes. Can someone just slap me!? I look forward for tml. =) And i shall be a good girl later. Take out my lit text and read! Catching a flick tml, hopefully.

Brighter than sunshine.

2007-01-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

=) happy as it is;

Alright. Suppose to have breakfast in the morning before going to school. But.. rhoda and i took the second bus. So YA. Obviously if we ate we'll be late. Lol. Yupp. I got caught for my hair. ): Sighs. I'm lazy to dye back though i've already bought dye. Good for hilda, she didn't get caught though its pretty obvious! LOL. So today did nothing just wrote a chinese compo and thats all. Finally got to see you. I'm so happpppy! Muahahha. Tamp with hilda and mel. And bus home with mel. Ok. I shall do my hair now. Pfftttt.

Thanks for everything. (:

And when the symphony plays, I feel my feet

Lifting from underneath, you grab my hand

Spin me around and right before I fall

You catch me and you say, baby, it'll be okay

Just look into my eyes and we will make another day

If only I could wake up every morning to see you beside me

2007-01-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

I met one lovely only. Ya. So i bought a top for someone and and headed to popular to get my pens. And i feel like complaining! Lol. Aren't we staffs suppose to collect our salary promptly?! I've never gotten mine promptly before. I've to bug the person bug and bug. Is this how it should be? Maybe they are cheating my money. YA. And i've got a call from an unknown, i thought it was. I answered and the person mumbled some stuff which i can't hear. Something to do with singtel. So i thought i didn't pay bill. Ok. The person was talking in 'AngMoh' slang. SO YA. I was kinda irritated at first. Then the person start to laugh. I was like huh?! And the caller was clarence chua! OMG. Its super lame la. But its kinda funny. Hahahaha. Ok. Whatever. There's school tmr. SIGHS!

ily, sweets. =)

2007-01-01T19:33:00.000+08:00

Ok. Back from taiwan. Many photos to upload but i'm lazy to post it. Sighs. The things there are farking !@#$%^&. I hate to shop there cause its especially crowded. =( Anyway, i'm very lazy to update. Sighs. I had fun with them! =) As in dad's colleagues. They are funny people. And there's a boy called keith. He is cute! Eh, he's only primary 2. So yahhhh. Sighhhhs. I'm farking pissed! RAHHHHHHHHHHH. Goodbye.

2006-12-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

Leaving in 2days time. Sighs.

Pictures, says it all.

Sisters.

Elel and i. =)

messed up.

nightlife.

meet the parents.

view from the top.

Thats all. Rather lazy to update. Blahhhh.

Am i not important ?

Sun rays won't help me find the reason why you disappeared out of my sight. I only hope all that moments won't be lost like tears in the rain.

2006-12-22T10:03:00.000+08:00

Kkkkkk. I'm leaving for malaysia in the afternoon. Sighs. Reluctant to go thou. Yesterday, had christmas gift exchange programm. We went changi village to have our dinner at a restaurant called 'Jacob'. Yah, if i never remember wrongly. All those fun filled times spent with them. Hmmm. Headed over to the beach after. Took photo and the wind is blowing very strongly. It messed out hair. Lol. So here are the photos.

Closing my eyes i can see how life flows in time, without conceding. Almost any attention to the living beings who unwillingly adapt their lifes to its unexpected strokes. Despite i try not to fear at this sight, when i open my eyes i see again, in the air of time, still flowing without end. Additional laughs, tears & unspoken thoughts.

Ily.

2006-12-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

Genting trip would be like in 3days time. I so don't look forward to it. These few days, it has been raining cats and dogs. Rahhhhhhhhh! I like this kind of weather but! It sucks too cause there's difficulty going out. So i'm thinking whether to bring a brolly out with me later. So funny la, carrying one brolly around town. Time to go prepare myself. Blahhhhhhhhhh. I hate you! Hmpf.

2006-12-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

Didn't had the thought that i could make it to sec 5 ?! I didn't really study so yahhhh. I'm surprised. Heh. I'm glad i did la. =) Tml christmas shopping! Gonna shop for christmas present. Towning with hilda! Yupppp. Thats all.

Life sucks.

2006-12-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid. Trying not to think about it. Where are you!? Sighs.

Chua chua said she miss me! (refer to her blog) Lol. I'm so honoured. Blah. =)

2006-12-17T14:45:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be collection of results. I'm scared stiff. Sighs. Prepared for the worst ? Maybe. Its hard for me to blog here, since so many people are reading. Oh well. Goodbye.

Because you can spend your whole life analaysing, justifying, quantifying and dividing till there's nothing at all.

2006-12-16T12:07:00.000+08:00

I will never know what the future brings. But I know you are here with me now and we will make it through the ups and downs. And I hope you are the one that I share my life with. Alright, so that marks the first paragraph.

When i look back at my blog archives, i really miss those times. We use to be so happy. Blahhhhhh. Whatever it is, its already over.

Now, a new chapter begins.
I'm going out later with my sisters and cousin. Parents aren't in singapore. I enjoyed myself yesterday. =) Met chua chua and ht at tamp inter first. Then we went to have our lunch. Went Ikea with the boy. Haha.

2006-12-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

Sighs. I love you.

2006-12-15T11:52:00.000+08:00

00:21.

caught open season with littleboy yesterday. it was hilarious. =)

2006-12-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love i found in you
I'll be forever thankful dear.
You're the one who held me up.
You're the one who saw me through through it all.

I'm everything i am because you loved me.

I didn't mean to fall in love with you.

2006-12-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

Rarrrr. Yesterday went school with the little boy at 10plus in the morning. Deprived of sleep. Lol. And i met chua chua and tor tian again. They two always bully me la, at least eileen's better. Lol. Liting came after and had breakfast cum lunch. And we headed to the lib. Too engrossed playing eileen's psp ? Haha. Stayed there till 4plus. Went home with the little boy. In between there was something funny happened. Lazy to say. Bahhhhhhhhhhh. At night went lp with my mum. Had fun yesterday ? =)

Say goodbye.

2006-12-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

I feel pretty. =)

Met hilda lee at her house there. And we cabbed to tamp. Bought cereal choc for si mun. But she's not working today. -.- So i gave it to sharon instead. Shall get it for her another day. Its rather ex thou. Rarrrr. Had pasta mania for lunch. And walked around. Bought a necklace for lala. =) Better be appreciated. Slack at starbucks, java chip! Lol. Saw lingling and she came to talk to me. She is ridiculous. I swear i hate talking to her. Arghhh. Home sweet home after. My hair is now very very flat. But mummy said its not bad. =) & i'm satisfied enough.

Thanks for letting me feel loved again.

2006-12-11T09:28:00.000+08:00

If only .. i could erase those mistakes i've made.

8th dec - spent the day out with my gfs over at bugis. it was tye's birthday. so as ble's. =) had sakae. and left around six plus. train to bedok with deb, daph and derr. see all the 'd's. laughs. headed to tp to meet tor tian and chua chua! they brought me to their school lib. ok la, that was like 8plus already ? no one's there, i mean got lah. a few only. and the tor tian complained that she was hungry! so we headed down to tamp inter. had kfc. they keep making me la! -.- i swear i'm not going to meet them anymore. hahah. kidding. those two idiots send me home. and up on the bus, i saw cherlle. surprised. =) ok la. they all made my day!

9th & 10th dec - working.

my last day was yesterday ? i'm out of that place. =) kkkkk. i'm going out alone later to do my hair nice nice. laughs. =x

you're captivating smile captured my heart and left me in a trance.

rash, impulsive ? hmmmm.

2006-12-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

Sighs. I'm sick! =( Before i even met fuddy, my stomach hurts like fark. And when i met fuddy i feel like vomiting. -.- Forced to go home, but i seriously didn't want. So headed to changi v. And ... i started giving out cold pesperiation. Cabbed home and plong onto the bed. Woke up by my dad, and headed to see the doctor. I'm having gastric flu. Sighs! Its worst to puke out what i ate. Fark. =( heading down to tamp to collect my pay tml. Sighs! =(((((((

2006-12-04T14:50:00.000+08:00

Early morning and i got woken up by elsie. Thanks ar. Woke the girl up. Bathe and watched tv. Sighs! Borinnnnnng! Went to meet the girl which is Jaypee. She is one troublesome girl luhhh! She said she was hot so i had to walk back to get tissue. She said the coffee was bitter so i had to walk back to get coke. Lol. How i wish i can smack her. Kidding! =) Pasta for breakfast cum lunch ?!! Haha. It was nice la. Thanks arrrr. It was scorching hot and we decided to hit the playground for shelter. And took plenty of photos. -.- SIXTY plus shots ?! LOl. Madness. Walk her to the bus stop and i went home. I'm going out again later. To wait for fuddy!! Hahahha.

2006-12-03T12:56:00.000+08:00

I had a great time yesterday! =) Met hilda and melody on train first. And they happen to see mable. I miss her luhhhh! =) So we headed to starbucks to find the rest. Walked around. Debrah left at around 5. So we went to cafe cartel to eat. Since i'm super hungry! Rhoda came along after. Hahahaha. They presented me with a slice of cake ok. So touched! =x And went walking around and taking photos. =) Thanks for eveything people. You guys made my day! Loves. Anyway, met sweets after that. Yeah.

They all are my love. =)

Thanks to those who wished me, very lazy to reply. Heheheh. Loves!

2006-12-02T12:15:00.000+08:00

I've been working from tuesday till thursday. Tired. I don't have my pay yet! So damn pissed la! Argh. Anyway, yesterday met the girls. Hilda and rhoda! Waited for hilda at bedok and we trained. Headed to suntec first cause hilda want to change her polo tees. And had lunch at pasta mania. After which we walked to marina square. I bought 2 topshop top la! Sighs. Haha. And we bus to parkway after. Went to look for rhoda tye! Lol. Waited for her to end work. Went banquet to have dinner. And home sweet home. I reach home like 11plus 12. My father gave me hell. Haha. Nice catching up with them luhhhh. I'm going out sooonn.. like to town with the girls?! Hmmm.

I appreciate everything you've done. =) Thanks sweets.

2006-11-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

Sighs. All my fault! I can't find any reasons, for the change in me. All happened too sudden. I don't know what to say, all i can say is that i'm sorry. Why ain't i the old me ? Sighs.

Who will be there for me when i'm down.
Who will be there to listen to all my deepest inquisitions.
Who will be there to love me, unconditionally.
Who will lend me a shoulder to cry on ?
Arghhhh! I want to free myself. Whenever i'm about to forget you, you would just message me! And ... i'm back at square one again! Again and again!

I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before.

2006-11-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

Omg. I just realise elel is farking cute. Laughs. Got this from my sister's blog.

Too bad luh didn't went to her concert. Was out with fuddy. Haha! Anyway, i can't wait for 1st december! I'm going to rebond my hair with the company of hilda lee. She's the best la! Wonder why i'm so excited. Hmmm. And 2nd dec towning with her and who else ? Haha. I wanna buy plenty of things! Did i say yesterday fuddy gave me a special delivery. I find it extremly sweet. Simun they all were like teasing me. -.- Ah, whatever. Work work work! Tuesday, wednesday, thursday. FAINTS. But mr manager clarence is nice to me, he gave me many off days. Haha. Boreddd!

2006-11-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

This goes out to someone that was once important person in my life. I didnt realise that at that time i could forgive myself for the way i treated you, so i don't really expect you to forgive me. I don't even know, just listen. You're the one that i want, the one that i need. When i first saw you i knew it was real. I'm sorry about the pain i made you feel, that it wasn't me. I remember when i first looked into your eyes it was like, i was there heaven in the sky. I wore a disguise cause i didn't want to get hurt, but i didn't know i made everything worse. You told me we were crazy in love, but you didn't care when push came to shove. If you loved me as much as you said you did, then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't around. Now you push me away like you never even knew me. I love you with all my heart. I guess you forgot all the times that we shared together. Now i can't believe that our loves torn apart. Sighs. Your name is forever planted in my brain. Our first day seemed so magical. I remember all the times i had with you. Remember when you first came to my house, you looked like an angel. And i do miss you still. I just thought we weren't meant to be together. I guess now we will never know. The only thing i want is you to be happy or rather if you're with me or without me. I just want you to be happy.

Sighs!

2006-11-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

Sighs. Went to meet clarence and sabrina yesterday. Apparently, cheryl said she will come later(try), but she didn't. Laughs. Slack at west plaza coffee shop. If i'm not wrong its west plaza. Can't remember. People tend to mix clarence chua and clarence tan together huh. -.- Whatever it is. It was nice talking to them. Headed to sabrina's house after that. Her mum's nice. (: Slack there for a while and home sweet home. I'm going to rebond my hair, soooooooooon!

My smile is sweeet! Laughs. =x

2006-11-23T12:58:00.000+08:00

Finally i get a day off!! Farking exhuasted. Today si mun called me to go work, but i rejected. I need a break, seriously. Apart from that, i also don't feel good. ): Sigh! Yesterday had work, from afternoon till i end work i was doing stickers. Stickers!? Arranging the stickers so tough la! It took me 6hours doing that? Lol. So i went to look for my mother that. I went to buy sushi from sakae. (: And home sweet home.

Sunday.
Had work too. Sigh! ): But there was 5people in the shop. So is absolutely a slack! Jackie and i were like always sitting in the store, eating snake. Haha. =x After work went to watch movie with cheryl they all. They didn't tell me it was a horror flick ?! -.- Went home after which is like 11plus 12 !?

Monday.
Lets see what i did on monday. I went to work and worked ot. Yeah. Because we still got plenty of stocks to do. After which mr manager clarence chua send me home. (: Oh and i met the clique for lunch. It was melmel's birthday. (: We had pizza hut. Anyway, i enjoyed myself with them though its only for 2hours. Heheheh.

Tuesday.
Work again, when i'm not suppose to work. Cherlle couldn't make so i took over her. After work i met a friend. Had dinner together. And home sweet home.

I wish to forget you!

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2006-11-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

I realise many people view my blog. Okay whatever. Been hanging out with ah zai and clarence lately. I also dont know why! Faints. Yesterday was out with them again, we went to watch step up. The show not bad la! Watchable. Hahah. And we went to meet someone, which i do not like to see her face. There's work tml! Sigh! Never mind la, tml will be slack because clarence is working! LOL. =x Ok. I'm going town later with my family. My mother just don't want to buy that adidas watch for me. -.- She say its childish! Wtf ?! Lol. She then childish ar. Hmpf! Hahahahah.

2006-11-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

I just realise something, 17 more days and its my birthday! :D And i'm getting my pay in like 14days time. Sighhhhh. I know its still long, but! ... Lol. Hilly they all now at town. ): They're gonna watch step up. Grrrrrr. I want to watch! Lol. But anyway, i'll still be watching it with someone. Hurrr. A mysterious person. Hmmmm. Ask me who i'm dating out. Hahahahahahahah. Bored! My death time is drawing nearrrrrrrrr.

Isn't it lovelehhh. Grrrr.

2006-11-15T13:03:00.000+08:00

Okay, yesterday was a tiring day! I'm going to be so dead at night. Arghhh. Damn my farking sister. Worked till 8. And went open plaza with jackie and candy. Lol. They kept saying i was stupid. -.- ! I guess i was, last time. Didn't felt like going home so someone accomapanied the whole night. Ok lets name that someone, abc. Lol. =x So went loyang point with abc. And we talk till around morning. See thats what i meant by i'm going to get killed tonight. Slack at the car park. Aiya, i reach home around 2plus. Big sigh! But anyway, it was nice talking to ____. Cause i enjoyed myself too. (:

And another thing, i hate you so much. and i still got no idea why am i thinking about you. big sigh again!

my maid is irritating me!!

wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo. zhi shi wang le zhe meh tui hou.

2006-11-13T14:12:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i've made the right decision a not. Because, you're still on my mind every now and then. Your smell still lingers on my bed. At this rate, i'll go crazy. ARGHHHHHHHHHH. I hate the way things are like now! Someone just enlighten me. I'm very very very extremly unhappy.

2006-11-13T12:01:00.000+08:00

Staying at home bores me to death. Send elsie to school today morning. -.- Had mac for breakfast! Didn't manage to finish it, cause i had no appetite. ): Wanted to go catch a movie with hilly, but she has tuition. In the afternoon somemore. Sad. Never mind. I'll still be going out! Hahahaha. To have dinner with 'fairy god father' + his gay friend. LOL. =x Ok, i'm so boredd noww. I need some entertainment. There's work tml, wed, thurs and sat. Ahhhhhhhhhh.

p/s : someone just please tell me where i can engrave zippo. ):

2006-11-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

You love someone, you've to let the person go.
Therefore, i'll let you go.

My manager came over to my house just to pass my rooster to me. What good services he does. Lol. -.- My mother just kept talking to him. Like wtf. Make me no face! Fairy god father is entertaining me, he claims he is one fairy god father. Make me want to puke only. Haha. I'm super bored now. Sigh!

Because, I can see us holding hands. Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand. I can see us on the country side. Sitting in the grass laying side by side. You can be my baby. Girl you amaze me.

I'm a happy child now, hopefully. :D

2006-11-12T11:45:00.000+08:00

I've kept myself busy on friday and saturday. Friday, i went changi airport with my parents to send juliet home. Went home, rest for awhile, went tampanies mall with my mother. Had jack place for my breakfast cum lunch. And headed down to the bank to open an account. Went to look for them at starbucks after. We went to buy the dye and bus to daphne's house! Haha. I bought natural ash colour i guess. Amanda is my hairdresser. Lol. I must say only my fringe is obvious. Cause hilda lee, went to squeeze the whole thing on my fringe. -.- As in literally squeeze, the dye dropped onto my shorts. Lol. Went back to tamp with hilda cause i wanna buy something. Yeah. And home sweet home after.

Saturday. I went to work, it was a last min thing. Clarence came to fetch me. And my mother went out to talk to him. -.- I finally got my cheque! :DD

ting mama de hua.

2006-11-09T18:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back from sherie's house. I had meesua for lunch, maybe i had no appetite thats why i took so long to eat one bowl of meesua. Haha. Went home at 3plus 4 because my mother claims that i must be at home as the computer guy is coming. And it started raining like fark. Thought of running home, but my mother sure kpkb one la. So i ask juliet to bring brolly out. Hee. In the end, i did nothing at home, the guy din even teach me anything. Argh. And my mum left to vivocity with my dad. I'll be dying my hair tml! Dark purple or caramel brown ? I'm still deciding. Juliet is going home tml. And i'm responsible to fetch elsie from school on monday and tuesday. That means i'll get money. Haha. I've got no work from today to sunday. Thats sad. ):

I wanna watch step up!

wo xiang cong lai duo yi ci.

2006-11-05T13:02:00.000+08:00

There's work yesterday. We were rather busy la. So i had break, two came in to accomapany me. That is jackie and clarence. We talk talk talk. Lol. Accomapanied jackie to ts. And back to work. Worked till closing. I spolied the mop. =x I was laughing away. -.- Took photos with isabel. LOL. Stayed at the shop till like 11plus12? Suppose to catch movie 'the covenant(sp)' with yimin and her friends. But no seats. So ya. Slack and slack. Went home around 1plus. And i slept at 3! -.- I'm farking bored now. I've lose my voice. ):

I miss your company.

I'm happy when i'm with you. Yesterday, you assured me one thing, the feelings were still there. At least to me. I may not be right. It just feels so good to have you beside me. Heh. I pull myself back when you get crank up. Comforting myself, that its going to be alright. I'm all wronnnnnnnnnnng! Writing to you does help, i always feel much better after writing to you. Silly me. But i guess i should stop writing already.

I excuse myself from work tml. After what happened just now, it really spoils my mood. Went for dinner at one of the hawker centre just with my family. The food really sucks, didn't eat much. And i'm thinking now, what should i do at home tml. What a bad day.

2006-11-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

When i got up, i received a message from debrah. Haha. So sweet la! I'll miss you three! Thats definitely a sure thing. Lovelove. (: My parents installed cameras in the house. Thats very lame la. -.- I'm so boreddddddddddd. I need a entertainer. Maybe i'm going tamp later to meet my mother. I wanna rebond + dye my hair! Hilda leeeeee! =x There's work tml. I don't want to goooooooooooooo. Ok. I miss the girl. Haha.

2006-11-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

也許妳已經放棄我,也許已經很難回頭. 我知道是自己錯過, 請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我.

Someone tell me why can't i post chinese wordings. -.-

Its greeeek.

2006-10-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was great. (: Headed down to cityhall to meet them. And went raffles city to find sherie. Slack at starbucks and i had subway for lunch with hilda. Deciding what we should have for dinner. Had pizza hut for dinner in the end. Present her with a blueberry cheese cake. (: After dinner we all went to sherie's house to play badminton. The shuttle cock just smack right on my cheek. -.- Its ok. Heh. Played till 9 and went to sherie's house to have cake. (: Derr's father sent me home. Thanks ar. (: Lastly, HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY to sherie. Ok la, off to work. ):

I'M NOT HAPPY.

2006-10-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

I'm drained! I've been working like everday ?! -.- Yesterday, they post me to parkway to work. Working with jesz and mary jane is a fun thing, not. I was totally bored and tired there. Hilda came to visit me. Okay with her sister calista(sp?). We had dinner and got the box. Went back to work and left at 10plus.

I miss tha girl named ym.

2006-10-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

Omg la. My head is still spinning. I'm super giddy. Thanks to the family ride, we sat plenty of times ok! Alright. Met hilda first in the morning and when to escape to find debrah, sherie and daphne. It rained thrice or twice ? Slacked at burger king. And we went to play the rides after. Its fun luhhhhhh(with their comapany). (; Worked on monday. Made friends with ai ting. Ahaha. But whats the point la. They transferred her to changi airport to work. =( And tml i'm going to work alone ? Clarence not working too. Sad laaaaaaa! Ok. I so look forward to tml. -.-

p/s : i had fun today!

2006-10-22T20:01:00.000+08:00

Will be starting work tml. So i guess i won't blog that frequent anymore. Haha. I'm so scared they'll eat me up. =( And theres one day i'll be working with tyetye at parkway! Lol. Alright. Hilda came over to my house in the afternoon and we bused to bedok. Train to bugis and met up with rhoda tye. She bought her jeans. Shopped around at icon and bugis. Bus back to tanah merah. And decided to go down to tamp with hilly. Bought my earring, had dinner and went home sweet home. I'm very tireeeeeed. Anyway, i had a FUN time with them. All the laughters we had. Lol.

2006-10-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

My both arms are aching thanks to the canopy walk i had on friday. Heh. Talk to rhoda and hilda online. They both are really funny. I feel happy talking to them, everytime i would just laugh and laugh at our conversation. I'm crazy. Haha. Jp requested to meet for coffee. In the end, i had to make for her coffee. -.- But ok la, she owe me a meal. Accomapanied her for two hours, be thankful ok ? She entertained me by singing songs. Many many songs. Lol. Tml will be going down to bugis with hilly and rhoda. I can't wait. Grrrrr.

I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone. I feel the same thing always happens when you're gone. And I know you're just around the corner. But just around the corner is not enough.

2006-10-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

I'm damn tired! Went to the changi museum today. Super duper boring la! zzZZz. -.- Went back to school, slack in the canteen. And we've got the whole free period after that. Imagine how boring and tired we are. -Whines. Headed to tampines mall after that. Had lunch and went to bug clarence after. Finally able to work after so lonnnnng! -.- Okk. Saw debs, sherie, der and daphne. And we started talking. Haha. Went home after that. I'm TIRED. Tml, ice rock climbing. Heh. =)

Lalalalalaa.

2006-10-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

I'm single now and it feels so weird. But i'm glad that we're still as close. Haha.

Alright. Yesterday, cabbed to hilda's house then to rhoda's house. We bus-ed to harbourfront. Had breakfast at macs. The rest all reached already. After which we cabbed in to sentosa, tanjong beach. Played frisbee, volley then monkey. Hit the water next. Rest for awhile then we went to bathe. Took the tram to siloso beach. Had sakae for lunch. One word for it, fab. Heh. Next we took the chairlift up and sat the ludge ride. Super funnnnnn. Had ice cream at bens and jerry. And left to vivocity. I'm going back there! I eye-d on one shirt. Ha. Went to have dinner with hilda and the four went starbucks to slack. Went to find them after we ate. And i reached home at around 9plus thinking that i'll be going to school the next day. Who knows, my stomach hurt again. Therefore i decided not to go school. Haha. I stayed at home the whole day today. Went to see doctor he say i've got gastroentenitis ? Okkkk. I'm going school tml. Cause we'll be going changi museum. Ok. Byebye.

At night i pray, that soon your face will fade away.

2006-10-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

So who is going to make me happy?

2006-10-14T17:02:00.000+08:00

I hate to face reality.

It just pains me to lose someone who is so special to me. I know sooner or later we have to part. We can't be together forever. But i'm really thankful to you. You picked me up when i was at my weakest. You taught me many many things. Somethings that i was clueless about. You even made the effort to come all the way to my house, even during midnight. Brought congee to my house when i was terribly sick. Accomapany me to sleep or even stay with me during the night. What i wanted, you'll buy for me, give it to me. Vice versa. I didn't play my part being your gf. All i did was keep throwing tantrums at you. Sometimes i restrain myself. And sometimes when i'm sad, angry, i vent it all on you. You, obviously, weren't happy. You let me bite you, hit you when i was sad. I really appreciate it. I won't forgot all the happy moments we had together. I also thought i won't find someone else better after the breakup with her. But i did found one, it was you. You light up my life with brilliant colours. How i whish i can turn back time, but i can't. Whatever it is; You'll always be someone important to me. Sorry for all the hurt caused.

I'm ready for any decision you make.

I can't stop crying! Sigh.
History is going to repeat itself.

2006-10-12T12:24:00.000+08:00

Chalet was great.
Day 1
Hilda came over to my house to help me carry the stuffs. We cabbed down to tanah merah. Waited for the rest to arrive. Surprisingly, rhoda was the earliest. Heh. =x We took the shuttle bus to safra resort. Settled down and head to the pool side resturant with hilda and rhoda to have our lunch. Swimming after. Had claypot rice for dinner. Fab. =) Went home with melmel.

Day 2
Headed down to the chalet early in the morning. Went swimming around noon. All sun tanned except rhoda and i. Daphne taught me how to play mahjong. I got the hang of it already. Went bowling and went back to the chalet continue to mahjong. Darl came over after. Went home with her around 8plus. And i went to the playground.

Anyway, i had a fun time there. Can't wait for next tuesday, SENTOSA. =)

I WANT THE PICTURESSS.

2006-10-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

1 more paper.

I can't wait for the chalet(10-12th) and tanning at sentosa(17th). Heheheheh.
Grocery shopping on monday! -smiles widely.

Today went for accounts tuition and headed to tm with hilda and rhoda. And one piggy caught my eye. Someone just buy for me please. Haha. The manager will call us next if there is any vacancy. Hopefully there is. Need cash real badly. Heh.
I want to buy three things.
Paris hilton perfume for her.
Annasui secret wish.
Adidas watch.

Ok. Thats bout it. Goodbye.

Love makes the world go round.

2006-10-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

5papers down, and 3papers more to go!

You spoiled everything.

2006-09-22T10:48:00.000+08:00

Many loves. <3>=3

Skipped school today, and miss heng had to call my father. Like wth! She called all except rhoda tye's mother. Met hilly at bedok poly clinic. Fully packed so we cab to near by school to see doctor. So freaking expensive la! Hilly went to school while i went home. I'm going to meet her later! Haha. 10people din go to school today, that makes 27people left in class. Record breaking. Haha. I shall go watch tv now.

Laters! :)

2006-09-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

Its been long since i last blog. =3 Today, i was super tired la. And a stupid nerdy boy tried to touch my hand. I was fast enough to take away my hand. All he did was look at me and blink his eyes frantically at me. Thank god i took my hand away fast, if not i'll just give him one slap across his face. I'm so glad that bus 14 came in time. Haha. I don't want to sit beside a farking sicko' pingyi sec boy. He is sick in his brains. -.- After school, went for accounts tuition. Mrs chia came to pick us up. Left at 430 and bus to simpang. Met darling there. Had prata. And bused home. I alighted with darling cause my mother came to pick me up at esso. My mum said i walk like ah lian. That's so wrong! I'm not one ok. -.- She also ask me who was that beside me. I replied her, i dont know that person la. Lol. My sister laugh. =3 Went to the airport. We waited for my father like idiots la. Fact is, he already went home. He didn't know that we're going to pick him up. So waste our time la!

Yesterday, went aiport macs to study with the clique. I didn't really study, i get so distracted easily. Hilda and sherie kept dancing to the song toyko drift. Super funny la! And we play stupid games. Left the airport at around 6plus. Headed down to tampines mall with hilly. Bought my converse shoe and walked around tamp. Shopping at ntuc is e x c i t i n g. =) Reached home at around 8plus. Heheh. Bathe and plong in to bed. =)

Airport again on friday. =3

London Bridges.

2006-09-16T10:14:00.000+08:00

Now i really want to buy three things.
- Newurbanmale shirt.
- 'Cartunista' flip flop. (newurbanmale)
- Fleshimp skirt.

But, i've no money. ): Lol. Yesterday i went tampines mall to find my mother. Cause i thought of buying the giodarno ladies shorts. But aiyah, don't feel like anymore. My mum says its not worth. So i waited for her to blow finish her hair. Went to Qiji to eat. I had popiah. Nice nice. =] Walked around and went home. While my mother and her friend took a cab to greatworld. I've just started to play a new game. Audition. Exams are round the corner and i'm still playing. -.- I need some motivations, and wake up.

If you show me real love, baby I'll show you mine.
Baby, I'm perfect for you.

2006-09-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

You are so farked up.

So if its a trouble meeting me, then FORGET IT.

Everyday you're playing your that stupid maple and neglecting me. One day, meassages are less then 20. If you think i'm ok with it, you're so farking wrong. Now, I feel like banging my head on the wall.

ALRIGHT. I don't want to continue, it just spoils my mood so badly. Now i really envy rhoda. Argh.

I want to be a happy child.

2006-09-13T15:44:00.000+08:00

I'll make this simple and short. I'm so lazy to even blog man.

- Went to school.
- I woke her up by my message. =x
- Had lessons as per norm.

Actually there's nothing funny happened today. Its a super boring plus tiring day for me. And Miss Juju(juliana) said rhoda and i are childish. Cause we laugh and laugh. -.- Whatever.

You light up my life.
Hugs.

2006-09-10T17:51:00.000+08:00

I'm slipping off the edge.
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again.

Half of the time I pretend that I'm fine and I keep it inside.

Nothing is for certain, but there's one thing that i know ; never underestimate what love can do. I just want to show you even though there are no guarantees. Love is unpredictable. If you intellectualise the meaning of this fate you may never know what we could find.
BAAAAHHH!