Sighs. All my fault! I can't find any reasons, for the change in me. All happened too sudden. I don't know what to say, all i can say is that i'm sorry. Why ain't i the old me ? Sighs.

Who will be there for me when i'm down.
Who will be there to listen to all my deepest inquisitions.
Who will be there to love me, unconditionally.
Who will lend me a shoulder to cry on ?
Arghhhh! I want to free myself. Whenever i'm about to forget you, you would just message me! And ... i'm back at square one again! Again and again!


I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life i had before.

Omg. I just realise elel is farking cute. Laughs. Got this from my sister's blog.




Too bad luh didn't went to her concert. Was out with fuddy. Haha! Anyway, i can't wait for 1st december! I'm going to rebond my hair with the company of hilda lee. She's the best la! Wonder why i'm so excited. Hmmm. And 2nd dec towning with her and who else ? Haha. I wanna buy plenty of things! Did i say yesterday fuddy gave me a special delivery. I find it extremly sweet. Simun they all were like teasing me. -.- Ah, whatever. Work work work! Tuesday, wednesday, thursday. FAINTS. But mr manager clarence is nice to me, he gave me many off days. Haha. Boreddd!

This goes out to someone that was once important person in my life. I didnt realise that at that time i could forgive myself for the way i treated you, so i don't really expect you to forgive me. I don't even know, just listen. You're the one that i want, the one that i need. When i first saw you i knew it was real. I'm sorry about the pain i made you feel, that it wasn't me. I remember when i first looked into your eyes it was like, i was there heaven in the sky. I wore a disguise cause i didn't want to get hurt, but i didn't know i made everything worse. You told me we were crazy in love, but you didn't care when push came to shove. If you loved me as much as you said you did, then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't around. Now you push me away like you never even knew me. I love you with all my heart. I guess you forgot all the times that we shared together. Now i can't believe that our loves torn apart. Sighs. Your name is forever planted in my brain. Our first day seemed so magical. I remember all the times i had with you. Remember when you first came to my house, you looked like an angel. And i do miss you still. I just thought we weren't meant to be together. I guess now we will never know. The only thing i want is you to be happy or rather if you're with me or without me. I just want you to be happy.

Sighs!

Sighs. Went to meet clarence and sabrina yesterday. Apparently, cheryl said she will come later(try), but she didn't. Laughs. Slack at west plaza coffee shop. If i'm not wrong its west plaza. Can't remember. People tend to mix clarence chua and clarence tan together huh. -.- Whatever it is. It was nice talking to them. Headed to sabrina's house after that. Her mum's nice. (: Slack there for a while and home sweet home. I'm going to rebond my hair, soooooooooon!


My smile is sweeet! Laughs. =x

Finally i get a day off!! Farking exhuasted. Today si mun called me to go work, but i rejected. I need a break, seriously. Apart from that, i also don't feel good. ): Sigh! Yesterday had work, from afternoon till i end work i was doing stickers. Stickers!? Arranging the stickers so tough la! It took me 6hours doing that? Lol. So i went to look for my mother that. I went to buy sushi from sakae. (: And home sweet home.

Sunday.
Had work too. Sigh! ): But there was 5people in the shop. So is absolutely a slack! Jackie and i were like always sitting in the store, eating snake. Haha. =x After work went to watch movie with cheryl they all. They didn't tell me it was a horror flick ?! -.- Went home after which is like 11plus 12 !?

Monday.
Lets see what i did on monday. I went to work and worked ot. Yeah. Because we still got plenty of stocks to do. After which mr manager clarence chua send me home. (: Oh and i met the clique for lunch. It was melmel's birthday. (: We had pizza hut. Anyway, i enjoyed myself with them though its only for 2hours. Heheheh.

Tuesday.
Work again, when i'm not suppose to work. Cherlle couldn't make so i took over her. After work i met a friend. Had dinner together. And home sweet home.





I wish to forget you!


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I realise many people view my blog. Okay whatever. Been hanging out with ah zai and clarence lately. I also dont know why! Faints. Yesterday was out with them again, we went to watch step up. The show not bad la! Watchable. Hahah. And we went to meet someone, which i do not like to see her face. There's work tml! Sigh! Never mind la, tml will be slack because clarence is working! LOL. =x Ok. I'm going town later with my family. My mother just don't want to buy that adidas watch for me. -.- She say its childish! Wtf ?! Lol. She then childish ar. Hmpf! Hahahahah.

I just realise something, 17 more days and its my birthday! :D And i'm getting my pay in like 14days time. Sighhhhh. I know its still long, but! ... Lol. Hilly they all now at town. ): They're gonna watch step up. Grrrrrr. I want to watch! Lol. But anyway, i'll still be watching it with someone. Hurrr. A mysterious person. Hmmmm. Ask me who i'm dating out. Hahahahahahahah. Bored! My death time is drawing nearrrrrrrrr.


Isn't it lovelehhh. Grrrr.

Okay, yesterday was a tiring day! I'm going to be so dead at night. Arghhh. Damn my farking sister. Worked till 8. And went open plaza with jackie and candy. Lol. They kept saying i was stupid. -.- ! I guess i was, last time. Didn't felt like going home so someone accomapanied the whole night. Ok lets name that someone, abc. Lol. =x So went loyang point with abc. And we talk till around morning. See thats what i meant by i'm going to get killed tonight. Slack at the car park. Aiya, i reach home around 2plus. Big sigh! But anyway, it was nice talking to ____. Cause i enjoyed myself too. (:

And another thing, i hate you so much. and i still got no idea why am i thinking about you. big sigh again!

my maid is irritating me!!


wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo. zhi shi wang le zhe meh tui hou.

I don't know if i've made the right decision a not. Because, you're still on my mind every now and then. Your smell still lingers on my bed. At this rate, i'll go crazy. ARGHHHHHHHHHH. I hate the way things are like now! Someone just enlighten me. I'm very very very extremly unhappy.

Staying at home bores me to death. Send elsie to school today morning. -.- Had mac for breakfast! Didn't manage to finish it, cause i had no appetite. ): Wanted to go catch a movie with hilly, but she has tuition. In the afternoon somemore. Sad. Never mind. I'll still be going out! Hahahaha. To have dinner with 'fairy god father' + his gay friend. LOL. =x Ok, i'm so boredd noww. I need some entertainment. There's work tml, wed, thurs and sat. Ahhhhhhhhhh.


p/s : someone just please tell me where i can engrave zippo. ):

You love someone, you've to let the person go.
Therefore, i'll let you go.



My manager came over to my house just to pass my rooster to me. What good services he does. Lol. -.- My mother just kept talking to him. Like wtf. Make me no face! Fairy god father is entertaining me, he claims he is one fairy god father. Make me want to puke only. Haha. I'm super bored now. Sigh!

Because, I can see us holding hands. Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand. I can see us on the country side. Sitting in the grass laying side by side. You can be my baby. Girl you amaze me.

I'm a happy child now, hopefully. :D

I've kept myself busy on friday and saturday. Friday, i went changi airport with my parents to send juliet home. Went home, rest for awhile, went tampanies mall with my mother. Had jack place for my breakfast cum lunch. And headed down to the bank to open an account. Went to look for them at starbucks after. We went to buy the dye and bus to daphne's house! Haha. I bought natural ash colour i guess. Amanda is my hairdresser. Lol. I must say only my fringe is obvious. Cause hilda lee, went to squeeze the whole thing on my fringe. -.- As in literally squeeze, the dye dropped onto my shorts. Lol. Went back to tamp with hilda cause i wanna buy something. Yeah. And home sweet home after.

Saturday. I went to work, it was a last min thing. Clarence came to fetch me. And my mother went out to talk to him. -.- I finally got my cheque! :DD

ting mama de hua.

I'm back from sherie's house. I had meesua for lunch, maybe i had no appetite thats why i took so long to eat one bowl of meesua. Haha. Went home at 3plus 4 because my mother claims that i must be at home as the computer guy is coming. And it started raining like fark. Thought of running home, but my mother sure kpkb one la. So i ask juliet to bring brolly out. Hee. In the end, i did nothing at home, the guy din even teach me anything. Argh. And my mum left to vivocity with my dad. I'll be dying my hair tml! Dark purple or caramel brown ? I'm still deciding. Juliet is going home tml. And i'm responsible to fetch elsie from school on monday and tuesday. That means i'll get money. Haha. I've got no work from today to sunday. Thats sad. ):

I wanna watch step up!


wo xiang cong lai duo yi ci.

There's work yesterday. We were rather busy la. So i had break, two came in to accomapany me. That is jackie and clarence. We talk talk talk. Lol. Accomapanied jackie to ts. And back to work. Worked till closing. I spolied the mop. =x I was laughing away. -.- Took photos with isabel. LOL. Stayed at the shop till like 11plus12? Suppose to catch movie 'the covenant(sp)' with yimin and her friends. But no seats. So ya. Slack and slack. Went home around 1plus. And i slept at 3! -.- I'm farking bored now. I've lose my voice. ):

I miss your company.


I'm happy when i'm with you. Yesterday, you assured me one thing, the feelings were still there. At least to me. I may not be right. It just feels so good to have you beside me. Heh. I pull myself back when you get crank up. Comforting myself, that its going to be alright. I'm all wronnnnnnnnnnng! Writing to you does help, i always feel much better after writing to you. Silly me. But i guess i should stop writing already.

I excuse myself from work tml. After what happened just now, it really spoils my mood. Went for dinner at one of the hawker centre just with my family. The food really sucks, didn't eat much. And i'm thinking now, what should i do at home tml. What a bad day.

When i got up, i received a message from debrah. Haha. So sweet la! I'll miss you three! Thats definitely a sure thing. Lovelove. (: My parents installed cameras in the house. Thats very lame la. -.- I'm so boreddddddddddd. I need a entertainer. Maybe i'm going tamp later to meet my mother. I wanna rebond + dye my hair! Hilda leeeeee! =x There's work tml. I don't want to goooooooooooooo. Ok. I miss the girl. Haha.

也許妳已經放棄我,也許已經很難回頭. 我知道是自己錯過, 請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我.

Someone tell me why can't i post chinese wordings. -.-

Its greeeek.