Everyday is so stagnant. O's are in one weeks plus time, and what am I still doing. Just tell me. Not motivated to study. Even if I do study, nothing goes into my mind. It's just in and out. Dear God, please help me to feel the rush, and the need to study for O levels. Make me feel motivate. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Catch me @ LJ.

Fill in the blanks. I feel like __ now. I feel so __ by ___. ___ is having some fun while I'm at a __ state. Holds a bunch of flowers and chants - he loves me, he loves me not. Yeah. Finally got back my mp3. Which means no more lonely bus rides to school! School hasn't been any better. Nowadays, I dread going to school. I can bloody hell wait to graduate from that school, not. I think I'm just attending for the sake of attending. And of course, friends. I realise I haven't been revising. Just by doing assignments is not enough, never enough. So I guess I shall hit my books now. It's going to be a long day tomorrow. Sigh. Dear C, Everything was never enough. Sigh. Love, E. - Always said I would know where to find love, Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough, But some times I just felt I could give up. But you came and changed my whole world now, I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see, what love means.

This may be very random. But I don't care.
Through the ups and downs, we managed to pull through. I Love them all.

Lets play oblivious. When one person is all so excited to meet her beloved, waiting, sitting - nothing seems to get her attention. Then the sky seems to get darker, still waiting patiently. After waiting, the person withdraws himself. Can you feel the resentment that the person waiting is feeling? Yeah. I’m feeling so farked up now. Maybe there’s one thing that you should know, I hate quarrelling with you. Though everytime we quarrel, the next instant we’ll be perfectly fine again, it’s the impact that’s left on my heart. I’m still crying inside and plays to be happy on the exterior. I’m very afraid to lose you. Sighs.
Drink, anyone ?


No more empty promises please.

I thought I would say bye to Blogspot and hello to Livejournal. But I'm naive in Livejournal. So yeah, shall just stick to Blogspot. Furthermore, it's user friendly. Have been meeting dearest lately. And I'm loving it. Cause his holidays are all mine. Solely mine. Its love with capital L

Finally got to meet Baby yesterday. I've been such a naughty girl, I gave school a miss. =( Went to fetch him up and we headed to tamp(as usual). I'm rather sick of that place. I said I'm sick of that place, but strangely, I'd still been going there for plentiful of times. Prolly because its near my place. Caught Norbit. That flick is a total bore lah. It was a waste of money, really. I wanna catch Epic movie the next time. Baby decided to have dinner at Airport's Swensen. And guess what, Swensen was crowded with people. As a result, we just settled for Macs. Rah. And something happened. No, I won't divulge. Reached home around 11plus cause I stubbornly didn't want to alight at my stop. Sat all the way to Changi Village. No lah, actually I wanna spend more time with Baby. Laughs. Alright, need to prepare myself now. I'm going to my cousin house and Long Beach at night. Uncle's treating. Whahaha. =)


I want to make you the happiest person ever.

I.Love.You


A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
Your finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

God did answer my prayer. I'm recovering so well now. Hello baby, I wanna watch Norbit! Lol. Chinese New Year doesn't seem like Chinese New Year to me at all. Places I went to, didn't have the Chinese New Year atmosphere. Guess last year was much better whereby we get to gamble and win money. Real money hor! Duh. Sighs. I miss bf so damn much lah. I want to see you soon ok ? =) Why not, now. Hmmm. Lol.


Hao ai hao ai ni oh.

Dear God,

Please heal me from the flu and sore throat I'm having now. Its been three days already. I want to get away from this uncomfortable-ness. This feeling had never been good. ): Amen.

Love, Me.


Been meeting Baby since wednesday? Haha. Yesterday went to consult doctor and headed to tamp to watch movie. Wanted to catch Epic Moive, but but but, the timing not right plus its crowded with so many people. So we watched Just Follow Law(?!). Comical and amusing enough. After which went to meet my mum and sister. Had our nails done. Mummy bought new phone lor. So unfair! I wanna change my phone too, soon. Lol. Bet they will even allow. Hmpf. Had dinner at Jack's Place. The service there sucks lah! They are super unpolished. Headed home at around ten. Yeah. Gramm's coming over later. Rahh. I wonder what is Baby doing ? ):


Ily.

RAH RAH RAH.


Happy Valentine's Day to one and all. (:
I love my baby.

I fell sick at the later part of the day. I felt so heavy and giddy. Sighs. Thought Baby could at least comfort me. But it turned out to another way round. Now he is ignoring me for asking him to go away ? Fact is. I hate it so much. But he just continues after messaging him four times. I'm sick and I had to pacify him. A girl with fever can. Sighs. I somehow just can't get your care and concern huh. But still, I'm so damn sorry for asking you go away. Don't feel like going to school tml! I'm burning hot. ): But there's standard test tml which I had yet to study. FARK. Sighs.


I love you.

I'm so annoyed can. RAHHHHH. !@#$%^&* Forgive me. Hilda understands what I'm going through now cause I’ve been droning to her all day. =(


You say you're looking for happiness
But when it comes, you runaway from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do
Now the rest is up to youUntil you love yourself, you'll never change
You'll keep on runningUntil you deal with today

Kiss Goodnight.



=(

A wonderful day isn't it? Met baby at town. Haven been seeing him for like ages due to his hectic schedules. =( RAH. He bought me a watch from stamps and a levis belt. Now, we've got couple watch. Laughs. Thanks darling, I’m loving it ok. =) Trained down to tamp with him and had our dinner. I left to meet lee lee. Caught MissPotter. I don't really like it, but over all its watchable. Bought stuffs and home sweet home. Tired can!

I love you. =)

E : A good kisser.
S : Easy to fall in Love.
L : Loved by eveyone.
Y : One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for.
N : Dead sexy.
N : Dead sexy.
HAHA. Another bulletin.


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Because every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes.

Today was the collection of 'O' level results. So perplexing, I don’t even know if I want to continue studying. I'm not ready to put that bountiful effort into studies. Yet, I don't want to waste one year of nothing. I need someone to motivate me to study can! I don't want to blubber when I'm collecting results next year. =( Eslynn, buck up.. RAH. I regret not going parkway to meet my mum. All of a sudden I just feel like snipping off my 'long long' hair. I'm at home alone la! And I'm so going on a diet. I misss youuuuu. Sighs. It seems like this is the first time i recieve such treatment. -pouts


"Stay with me."


What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow and each road leads you where you want to go. If you're faced with the choice and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. If one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walking till you find the window. If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile. My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. You never need to carry more than you can hold and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you. Very much.

Say it right, like you mean it.

I wanted so much to ask you to stay, but I know I can't.
I'm such a hopeless girl who is so much in love with you.
So many mistakes I've made. I'm sorry.



-


SIGHS. ='(


Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark

This whole week is covered with tests. Test and more test. Faints. Candidly speaking, I think that Chen Wei Hong is not a qualified Chinese teacher. Maybe she has what it takes to be a Chinese teacher. But, still I don’t think she is good. She should just be in charge of the lower sec. She has no way to handle us. All she does is flash the answer on the visualiser and let us copy. What’s the point lah! Might as well we do something more purposeful and not just sit there and copy answer. She ravages plenty of time to get us settled. She has this irritating look on her face, and the more I see her the more I hate her. HMPF.

-

Sometimes, I feel that I’m too childish for you. =( But I don’t care. I love you gorgeous.


FIREWORKS.
I know, you know, that I know you love me.

Sometimes, I just want to dump myself in the rubbish bin.
Sometimes, I wish a car would run me down.
Sometimes, I wish I was a little smarter.
Sometimes, I wish I can stay out late.
Sometimes, I wish upon a falling star.



I'm better off dead.

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Yue kan yue shun yan. Laughs. - only hilda and rhoda understands right ? =)

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She'll be waiting.


Pissed to the max.

Where do I start? How do I start?


Sighs. I hate myself for loving you too much. I really do. I reckon that I’ve only myself to blame. For not being able to let you go or even the faculty to overlook you. This affair isn’t just like the others I had back. Its so diverse. You asked me to forget you. You jolly well know its almost not viable. My heart; like a thousands of sharp object knife-like through. I’m not going to ask you to stay anymore.


Out to raffles city later with mum and sister.
Argh. She's pissing me off. Good riddance.


What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?

My Only One.

Late afternoon, headed to marina square with Rhoda. Shopped till 6plus and left to tamp to meet Hilda. Had dinner at pasta mania. Went to play bishi bashi. =) Fun. Argh, what a spoiled day.

I feel like im such a let down. Sighs.

I wanna shout out to the whole world that;
I love you so so so so farking much.

Yesterday was magnificent. Except for one thing, Rhoda and I were late. If only we could jaywalk then we wouldn't be late. And I must say Mrs Chong is so farked up. Argh. No biology test cause the class protested for quite long ? Some showed dissatisfaction. Which somehow could be so annoying. Had POA supp class after school. Imagine this.

Mdm kee : girls you're late.
Hilda, Rhoda and I : we're not late, we reached the same time as you.
Mdm Kee : -rushes to open the door first- to prove that we are late.
Hilda : -pushes Mdm kee with her hands-
Mdm Kee : how dare you, Hilda!


Lol. I was aghast by what Hilda did. But it was so comical. Afterwhich bathe and changed and went to look for the boy. Its so not me to be there without you asking me to be. He doesn't believe that I waited for him alone. Sometimes I just feel like slapping him. Argh. Love la love.

Anyway, lollipop is my love! Its Rhoda and Hilda's love too. We are love rivals. Digressing, Lolli is such a H-e-r-o. =)


I want piggyback! -pouts.
That night at the beach.

I don't know how to start thanking the Lord, for blessing me with such a sweet little boy. Someone that I didn't know from the start. Now, became a part of me. Being with you, never had been any better. You taught me so many things, that I start to learn. Never to take things for granted. We must know how to give and take. Adapting to your everyday life is new to me. On the contrary, I'm willing to try. When I'm with you, you make me feel like as if Im still a small girl. Haha. I like and miss that feeling. I like it when you feed me. I like it when you lock your hands with mine. I like it when you plant kisses on my forehead. I like it when you hug me from the back. I like it when you call me darling. I like it when you hold my hands tight. I like it when you tickle me, sometimes though. I like it when you make me laugh. I like it when you laugh at my silly and lame jokes. I like it when you surprise me outside my house. I like it when you prepare breakfast for me, feel so loved. I like it when we argue about ludicrous stuffs. I like every single detail about us. Being with you has been a bountiful experience.
I love you. Every single facet about you, I love.

-

Had science physics practical today after school. After which tamp-ed with hilda, rhoda and mable. We started talking about the past and present. Omg. There's like two upcoming test tml which is english and biology. I've yet to study. Sighs. =( How I wish I'm intelligent, intelligent till I need no studying. Lol. Ok. Goodbye.

How to save a life.

YAY. Reminiscing childhood. Feeling like a little girl once more. Wheeeeee.


dogs eat grass, they do they do. lol.


You're my sexy love.

Alright. That picture was wonderfully drawn, not by Yvonne. Haha. Aiya, its the thought that counts. =) School was alright. But one message just spoiled everything. I tried to hold back my tears, but couldn't. I felt so embarrassed. ''Sorry baby.'' I don't think I need your apologies. When everything is my fault.

Digressing, Hilda just slam the door without noticing my arm was there. ''Bang'', my skin tored. Ok, not so kua zhang lah. Its only a small part. ): But it hurts ok. Skipped Chinese supp class. Didn't felt like going ? So headed down to tamp with Mab, Rhoda and Hilda. Had lunch and home sweet home. Carol and I had a bet. I'm so sure she'll lose. And ultimately, she'll be the one presenting me with lollis.

C, Imy.

I'm taking a step back.

You are the littleboy made for me in the stars. In the stars, that's why I can't let you go. The little boy made for me in the stars. That's why I love you more the further I go. And before this existence you were always there. Waiting for me. You are, the realest thing I know.

Nelly Furtado - All things come to an end

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Miss everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Footprints in the sand.

One night I had a dream. I was walking along the beach with Lord, and across the skies flashed scenes from my life. On each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One was mine, and one was the Lord's. When the last scene of my life appeared before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand, and, to my surprise, I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. And I noticed that it was at lowest and saddest times in my life, asked the Lord about it: "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you would walk with my all the way. But I notice that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why you left my side when I needed you the most". The Lord said: "My precious child, I never left you during your time of trial. Where you see only one set of footprints, I was carrying you."


My tummy is rambly for something sweet. Perhaps a honey treat. (only hilda knows this, right?) Laughs.


I love you so. ):

I'm redundant. Right right right ? Blahh. Waiting for time to pass quickly. Lol.


You are my sunshine My only sunshine You make me happy When skies are grey You'll never know dear How much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away

Everythings my fault lah. I'm such a inept gf. So useless till i can't do anything. I gave my best already. Really.

I thought you were my fairytale.
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I so don't feel like going school tml! Thought of skipping school tml, but i've got accounts test. How great. And we'll be going for tp's open house lah. This is the second time?! Boring like .. no comments. Went city hall with hilda. And had dinner at billy's. Alright. And i waited for the bus for like half an hour?! I was so farking pissed lah! Omg. Now, i don't even feel like doing my lit. I'm having a headache. Heartache. Backache.


I'm sorry for being so rude. I'm sorry for flaring up at you. I'm sorry for ending your call. I was grouchy and crabby. I was worn-out. But all you could do was just to irritate me with questions about the guys talking in the background. I didn't mean it, sorry.


So farked up!

If I told you
I loved you
Would it move you enough
To even act as if you've heard?

If I said I was leaving
Would you still find a reason
To ignore my every word?

I think I'm still in a honeymoon period. I just can't get started. As in start to mug real hard. And this year, is a crucial year for me. Someone help me can. =( I always come home so shagged and worn-out. Till I'm in no mood to cram. SIGHS. Eeeee. Mosquito bites! =( Stop biting me lah! RAHHHH.


Iloveyou!

Journey through together;
Dearest, thanks for everything. I really appreciate it. Regardless of the quarrels we had, you still loved me unconditionally. Maybe I wasn't aware of what you did for me, but I realized it just. Perhaps, I was just so caught up with myself. You, who is willing to sacrifice your sleeping time just to send me to school. Doing things just to please me. The way you called me retarded although I don't like it. And start to beat you upon hearing that. The way you hook your hand over mine up on the bus. How you like to change song whenever I'm listening to it and telling you not to change, you still did. GRRRR. Preparing breakfast for me, when I requested for it. The way you pretend to be heated and look away whenever I turn to you. The way you act like a little small boy. Lol. Well, I'm thankful to have you. Someone so special and dear to me. I want a lifetime with you ok? Love you.


I want to get so many new things! Lol. Headed to tamp with hilda today and met mable and victoria after. Went lp to have our dinner and started talking about the commerce proj. -.- Cabbed home with hilda and mable after. ARGH. Gonna start on my homework now. Sighs.


Mel & Rhoda: You two cheer up ok! =)

Headed down to town yesterday with two darlings. Hilda and mable. =) Had lunch at Fareast. Our lunch was sure to be pricey eh! Walked around Fareast and down to Lucky plaza. Cause Hilda wants to buy her stuffs. Hmmm. Afterwhich we went to heeren, took prints. Along came mable friend. Down to wisma and we went our separate ways. I'm still considering whether to get either the flesh imp or the check bag. And I think I'll settle for the check bag though its 90bucks! Sighs.

But some times I just felt I could give up.

I feel like giving up. ARGH.



Irreplaceable
To the left
To the left



Baby i need you here; now, but you're walking away. SIGHS.

You got my temperature rising like El-Nin Yo.



Bee, JE VOUS AIME.

Thank you love. For everything that you did. You never fail to make me smile. Take for example, today. You surprised me. And did I tell you I like surprises!? Lol. I was really flabbergasted when I saw you. Glad that you made the effort to come all the way down at an earthly hour. Laughs. I love you!

Alright. I am really tired today, cause I slept kinda late yesterday. And I don't practice that often. So silly called me up. Okay. Cabbed to school with additional appendage of two bread. Started school right. After school, went to the coffee shop to have lunch with the wonderful girlfriends. We were late for the self-study thingy. And Mrs Joseph make a big ruckus out of it. Apparently, we are to change our skirts, that's what the school rules says! Ludicrous can! I can imagine myself in that skirt looking retarded. Laughs. Went home after, of course. Too weary to go anywhere. Blah. Camp Corri! =) Sorry, I'm too keyed up.
My wish, to hug you all night.

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
What would you do?

If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
Tell me would you?

So where's the contract that you said you'll do up.

YOU'RE OH SO SWEET CAN. TSK.

Was the decision i made right? Cause it doesn't seem to reflect upon you that with me or not, it doesn't matter. I hope i'm not making the wrong decision. Sighs.

More vodka please.

Last cry and you'll be out of my mind.

SIGHS. Met ht, eileen, lt, edmund, amanda and a guy at tamp today. They are funny bunch of people. At least they cheered me up. Then later eileen went home with me. The things bottled inside me i told her. Heh. Sighs. And since i said i wanna drink, she gave me a bottle of vodka. Thanks girl. RAHHHHHH. I'm so not in the mood to blog. =( Sighs.

I swear that this made me h o t.

From next week onwards, school ends at 3.30. Practically everyday! Except tuesdays. I so don't like it! Yesterday mab and hilly came my house. I bathe and change and out we went. Headed to tamp. Bought books and grab a bite at pasta mania. Met my mum first too. After which, i met you. You amaze me. Out later. asdfghjkl

Thank God i found you.

Its only the second day of school and there's homework already. RAHHHHHH. Okay. Only one subject though. Which is literature! kksnafjksdhfjsdf. I don't wanna read the text. I'll have to squint my eyes. Can someone just slap me!? I look forward for tml. =) And i shall be a good girl later. Take out my lit text and read! Catching a flick tml, hopefully.

Brighter than sunshine.

=) happy as it is;


Alright. Suppose to have breakfast in the morning before going to school. But.. rhoda and i took the second bus. So YA. Obviously if we ate we'll be late. Lol. Yupp. I got caught for my hair. ): Sighs. I'm lazy to dye back though i've already bought dye. Good for hilda, she didn't get caught though its pretty obvious! LOL. So today did nothing just wrote a chinese compo and thats all. Finally got to see you. I'm so happpppy! Muahahha. Tamp with hilda and mel. And bus home with mel. Ok. I shall do my hair now. Pfftttt.

Thanks for everything. (:

And when the symphony plays, I feel my feet

Lifting from underneath, you grab my hand

Spin me around and right before I fall

You catch me and you say, baby, it'll be okay

Just look into my eyes and we will make another day

If only I could wake up every morning to see you beside me

I met one lovely only. Ya. So i bought a top for someone and and headed to popular to get my pens. And i feel like complaining! Lol. Aren't we staffs suppose to collect our salary promptly?! I've never gotten mine promptly before. I've to bug the person bug and bug. Is this how it should be? Maybe they are cheating my money. YA. And i've got a call from an unknown, i thought it was. I answered and the person mumbled some stuff which i can't hear. Something to do with singtel. So i thought i didn't pay bill. Ok. The person was talking in 'AngMoh' slang. SO YA. I was kinda irritated at first. Then the person start to laugh. I was like huh?! And the caller was clarence chua! OMG. Its super lame la. But its kinda funny. Hahahaha. Ok. Whatever. There's school tmr. SIGHS!


ily, sweets. =)

Ok. Back from taiwan. Many photos to upload but i'm lazy to post it. Sighs. The things there are farking !@#$%^&. I hate to shop there cause its especially crowded. =( Anyway, i'm very lazy to update. Sighs. I had fun with them! =) As in dad's colleagues. They are funny people. And there's a boy called keith. He is cute! Eh, he's only primary 2. So yahhhh. Sighhhhs. I'm farking pissed! RAHHHHHHHHHHH. Goodbye.