Happy 18th birthday darling! <3

Love you lots. Haha. Monday is always the slackest day of all, Rhoda and i are loving it. Yeah. Had ite talks again at the avt. Thankfully its the last talk today. Haha. Then after school, waited 20mins for xiongzhuzhu mother to come. In the end i can't wait already cause i'm super in the rush. Haha. Cab to tamp with victoria. Went swensens to get the cake, then bought a shirt for baby. Went popular cause vic wanna get her file. Bought my lunch and went back to swensens to collect the cake. Cabbed home. Waited for baby to come find me at the bus stop. So long lor! Okay whatever. Then up to my room, had my lunch and cutting of the cake. Haha. Sorry baby, i didn't sing the happy birthday song sincerely. ): I was so paiseh when i sang ok. But she agreed to sing birthday song on my birthday! :D Well, its still a long way to go before my birthday actually comes. Hmmm, 4more months ? Sadded. Anyway, hope baby enjoyed herself today at my house. Haha. And and and, I love lying on your shoulder, gives me a sweet and nice feeling. (: And i love your sweet scent. Lol. Thats all i want to say.
Twahtwah.

A clique in a clique. How saddening isn't it ? ): Afterall, we're still a clique.

And lastly,
Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to ym, happy birthday to you! Muacks. (:

I'm waiting for baby to text me, she's having a FEAST at home now. Its our 1year2months tml! (: Hahahahahaha.

I FEEL SHIRTY RIGHT NOW.

Anyway, thanks AH BANG. (: Thanks for always being there. Heh.

Right now, i'm into the song thank god i found you.

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I want my darling.

Hmmm. Shall update bout yesterday. Amanda was like deciding whether to go home with me not. But you know bu shun lu. Haha. In the end she took a ride with xiong zhuzhu. Went home bathe and change and waited for her call. Took a cab to her house then to east point. Sat at starbucks. Clarence came after and the rest. Went ntuc to buy the food and all. Cab to tingting's house. Ya. Honestly, I didn't have a great time there. Thanks for neglecting me. You made me sit there staring into space and on the verge of tearing. So i decided to went home. And didn't manage to see her cut the cake. I went home around 9 plus. I stroll at the park at my house as i really didn't feel like going home. Thou i was a little afraid of the surroundings at my house, i just continued to stayed there till 10plus. I'm sorry i gave you the most unhappy memory on your "birthday". I'll make it up to you on monday. Cause yesterday wasn't even your actual birthday. I know i'll still have time to make it up to you. If i don't, then sorry.

One more pain just one more, might make the change. If you hurt me more than I love you. Baby I just want you to stay by my side. Since the first day I saw you i knew, there's never a day without you. I will never be complete without you. Through the ups and the downs, i wanted you to form the world, i'm always going to have you in my heart.

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I feel like blogging now. I'm all by myself at home. I mean really alone, with no one around. I did wrote out my heart felt words on the book just now and i guess i'm a little better now. Just a little. Just as i want you to be here, you're not. Oh well. I'm just as unimportant. I don't rank the first in your heart, but the second. How saddening. But its ok. I need time alone.

Thank God I found you, i was lost without you. My every wish and every dream somehow became reality. When you brought the sunlight, you completed my whole life. I'm overwhelmed with gratitude cause baby, i'm so thankful i found you. I was so desolate before you came to me. I was all by myself for the longest time. So cold inside and the hurt from the heartache, would not subside. I'm sorry.

I'm a sick child. Thanks to the person who passed it to me. This feeling sucks. =/

We've got accused of shoplifting! Like wth. Admit that we were wrong to open the plastic sheet. But we didn't take a single thing la. That in house security came out and made us embarassed in public! Who is he to talk to us in that manner. He is so FARK UP! Another outsider said we could sue him. I'll sue you till your pants drop ok. Haha. Kidding. Anyway, thanks for making us embarassed. -.-

Had accounts mock. It wasn't even like mock la, like tutorial. Everyone are talking among themselves. Haha. Till that malay teacher came in. Wahhhhhh! Whole class were total silence. Lol. I dislike her very badly. ): Heh. After mocks, went tamp with the xiongz. Bought the banana for baby. She should be thankful man. I'm like literally sick but i still went tamp to buy for her. Someone take care of me pls. :) Din get to meet baby today, but but but i'll meet her tml! She's birthday girl-to-be tml. Haha. Turning 18. Aint she happy. Lol. Your naughty miss you la. Miss you miss you miss you. :)

Hmm. Its been long since i've last updated. Am i right ? Haha. Past few days were not too bad thou. Except for some indians/malays who spoiled everything. They suck big time ok! Note: Its time you two should stop acting big in school. Bang people don't know how to apologise ? Gawd. Where's your manners. And you don't just cut the line. Grrr. Grosssssssssssssss. (: Anyway its not worth being peeved with them, i don't even know them for god sake. Thank god i don't know them. And i don't whish to know them either. Haha. Went for accounts tuition on tuesday and today. Its at tanah merah. It is not too bad a tuition. Went home bathe and changed, darling came over to my house on tuesday. Cooked lunch and out for tuition. Haha. Today, after school mrs chia came to pick as up at the main gate. Tuition till 5plus. We had our crappy and lame moments there. Haha. I can't post the video. Sadded. ): Cause i swop phone with baby! After tuition, baby waited for me at tanah merah. Tingting was there. Haha. Went home with baby. She is so niceeeeeeeeee. I love her! Heh. p/s : Hope you liked the gift + ring. (:
LOVE YOU. haha.

So now baby and I are back together again. (: We can't afford to lose each other right ? We made a pact yesterday that we'll never leave each other anymore. Loves you heaps & heaps!

Yesterday had maths mock. I din know xiong zhuzhu was waiting for me at the back of the canteen. Sorry yeah. Left without you. Haha. And she told me the pangya card can be used for maple. I tried and it works. Then it came to my mind, why didn't it work 2days back. Weird. Baby came over to my house. Got my maid to go barks to buy calamari and chicken wings. It was fab. Lol. Played maple for awhile. I changed my hair. First it was some stupid two buns hair style then i changed again, it became like A OLD AH MA'S hairstyle. LIKE WTF. Haha. Ch says its looks afro, like it got exploded. Grr. Sad case. Haha. I'm so going to change it again. After that watch the L word with her. Watch a little only, cause scared my mother come home. So we went up instead. Watch tv. Heh. Baby left around 12plus. Yup. And morning i had maths tuition.

Baby, sing that HuiGe - I love you song to me again! Ha. So sweet of you.

Its okay. Its okay. ITS OKAY. I know what i did was right.


Forget me, not.

I so don't feel like updating here. Shall update some where else that no one knows. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Had tuition. Infact, because of that I can't go bugis with rhoda and hilda. Sorry xiong zhuzhu and xiong moomoo. LOL. =x Baby came over after. Seriously speaking, I'm utterly disappointed with you. I admit i PURPOSELY pushed you. But how would i know you'll fall. You're telling me i can see whats going to happen next ? You're sitting so stably. I might not know is you purposely fall down. And when you fell i tried means to pull you back right. You just had to continue going down and down. So when you're up again, you just had to blame me saying what i know i'll always say don't know. So this is the true you ? I wonder the past 1year what did you do that i decided to be with you. I'm not saying i regret being with you or it was a mistake being with you. Honestly, I still love you. But just that the things you say or do you don't think before you react. I did so much for you, this is what i get in return ? Just push all the blame to me, i'll be more than willing to take it.

On the hand, you've got good points. You're sometimes nice and sweet. Its only sometimes. Now i sound so social stuides. I'm social studies freak, not.

Mummy presented me with the new n80. HAHA. Love love. :D Oh ya. Did i mention ChenWeiHong sucks big time ? Grrr. She send rhoda, hilda and i to rtc. Fark her man. =x

Maybe I wanted to be loved too much. Wipe the tears you hide your face. Blinded by the sorrow. How can I be smiling like before?When baby you don't love me anymore.

Caught pirates of the caribean with baby yesterday. And it ended like around 7plus. The movie is so freaking nice la. Haha. We wanted to have dinner at Sakae but theres so many people waiting for table. So decided to have our dinner at JacksPlace. It amounted to 47bucks. Haha. Cabbed home after and baby went to look for her friends.

Thursday.
Went tamp with rhoda and hilda. Then cab down to katong to meet baby. She had dental. -.- Afterwhich, went to have katong laksa. Then went seven11 buy seaweed and home sweet home.

Wednesday.
Met baby at lp cause i want to see doctor. My ear is like freaking pain. The doc say my lining inside my ear damage already. -.- Went shop&save to buy some food home to cook. Home cook food. Eveytime i cook one lor! Grrrrr. Then she just sit there watch tv! LOL. =x

I'm going orchard later. Omg.
PP is so big in size. Haha. =x

p/s. I LOVE YOU.

Promises made are to be kept.

I guess i screwed up my english oral today. =( Thats so disheartening la. And i could even answer back in singlish to the examiners. -.- Wth la. My mind totally went blank after sitting in front of them face to face. Damnit. Anyway, I think monday is the day which is the slackest of all. And i like mondays! Cause i'm free from everything. Hmmm. Rhoda waited for me outside the general office. We cabbed to tampanies. To out disappointment, the skirt at fox is sold out. Like we just went there last friday and its gone gone gone! So we decided that we shall head down to bugis on friday. Haha! Tml i've got to retake my 2.4run la. Sian half! I don't feel like going. It makes me so TIRED and my asthma comes back. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Tml's english mock. I so don't look forward for it.

Signed, sealed, delivered, I'm yours.
Spending most my nights, lost inside your eyes. Wondering how can i ever live without you. Live without you by my side.

I wanna thank someone. Haha. She motivated me to change for the better. But I can't name her here. Haha. If you happen to read my blog, thank you. =) Lol.

I sure do still blame myself. Thus I can't bring myself to face you. Its like I've betrayed your trust. =( Oh well. Its time for me to maple before my parents are back!

Every day that passes, I'm missing you more and more. I still remember the first time i set eyes on you. I knew this was heaven sent that I was destined to be with you. And now I've messed it up. I pray to God above that you will forgive me. Just take me in your arms and hold me all night long. And tell me you'll never leave me.

So much for telling him.

I'm really sorry, but i know you won't forgive.
Sorry is all that i can say.
Forgive me its really up to you.

Exams are like coming so swiftly. Lol. Our school has invited this new taiwan singer over at our school. Plus the 933crew. Haha. Chen Yi songs are so damn nice la(some only)! Anybody got his song send me ok ? ;) Apparently I can't get it downloaded. Had accounts tutorial after. So lame la. Laura and hilda was sining the breaking free song until like don't know what. Then Mdm asked whoever that was singing to shut up. Muahaha! Walked over to the fourteen busstop with Rhoda and Mab. My chinese tutor is finally sacked! Good riddance. Haha. =x

On a lighter note, I can finally watch scarymovie4! :D

I'm loving having you around.

I'm so gawd damn shagged! I know i kept telling miss tye that i'll blog about the hilarious incident that happened in class last wednesday. I keep forgetting! I've got such a bad memory. Anyway here goes;

Anna walking back to class from the toliet.
Rhoda and I : Anna mrs tay looking for you.
Anna : Really meh.
Rhoda and I : Ya!
She walked up to mrs tay.
Anna : Mrs tay you looking for me ?
Mrs tay: No.

Then we started laughing and laughing. Maybe a little hysterical. Haha. See how bored we are. We did the same thing to thami too. Super hilarious.

I had social studies mock exam today! Wah. Flunk for sure. Whatever I studied can't seem to get into my brain. After the mock, walked with rhoda to take bus. Went for my dental to collect my retainers. Its rather uncomfortable and disgusting! =x Lol. I have problems with talking. Ants are crawling all over me. No la, not that kua zhang. My darn maid din even bother to clear the packets of food left on the table. Now infested with ants. Argh! Why is she so lazy!? Tsk.

Bastard, I MISS YOU. <3

Read friendster's horoscope yet ? This is what mine says. Ha.
Your insight will come in handy, especially for friends who need some tough talk. Don't be caught off guard when someone asks for your insight today. You've been developing a strong opinion about what's been going on in this friend's life, but respectfully, you've avoided giving any lectures. So how should you handle this unexpected request? Easy -- be honest and tactful. You don't have to come clean about everything you think -- just give them enough tough talk to enable them to understand what their situation could really mean.

Alright. Friday went for dental with baby accompanying me go. Met victoria at the dental place. I finally braceless now! Its like so uncomfortable now. Cabbed down to town. Baby got her hair cut. Then we went over to taka to have our dinner at pepper lunch. I find it not bad, but baby say its not really nice. Whatever. Had ice-cream from swensens. Went over to paragon's coffee bean. Slack there for minutes. Pig and clar came after. Baby suggested walk in chalet. We went geylang then saw lots of prostitutes. Haha. Wanted to book a hotel room but its like so ex! So we cabbed to east coast. Fully booked. -.- So wtf! Then they decided to come over to my house. And bla bla. They went home around 6 and baby stayed over at my house. My handphone conked out on me. -.-! Just when i want to ask my mother to buy me a new phone, the phone is alright already. Wth! =( Oh, happy 13months to us. <3

Watched the L word with baby. Then we slacked in the room from after to night. -.- Went out around 10plus. Cause pig ask baby to go down to bedok. In the end everyone was like going katong to play number ball. -.-! And obviously baby was very dulan. Haha. =x Called pizza hut but all are engaged. So we went simpang instead. Ordered prata and stingray and brought over to my house and eat. Haha. Watched football. Then Baby slept over at my house till 6 then she left. Yeah.

I love you baby! Happy 1year 1month. :D You illuminate my soul.