Hmmm. Shall update bout yesterday. Amanda was like deciding whether to go home with me not. But you know bu shun lu. Haha. In the end she took a ride with xiong zhuzhu. Went home bathe and change and waited for her call. Took a cab to her house then to east point. Sat at starbucks. Clarence came after and the rest. Went ntuc to buy the food and all. Cab to tingting's house. Ya. Honestly, I didn't have a great time there. Thanks for neglecting me. You made me sit there staring into space and on the verge of tearing. So i decided to went home. And didn't manage to see her cut the cake. I went home around 9 plus. I stroll at the park at my house as i really didn't feel like going home. Thou i was a little afraid of the surroundings at my house, i just continued to stayed there till 10plus. I'm sorry i gave you the most unhappy memory on your "birthday". I'll make it up to you on monday. Cause yesterday wasn't even your actual birthday. I know i'll still have time to make it up to you. If i don't, then sorry.

One more pain just one more, might make the change. If you hurt me more than I love you. Baby I just want you to stay by my side. Since the first day I saw you i knew, there's never a day without you. I will never be complete without you. Through the ups and the downs, i wanted you to form the world, i'm always going to have you in my heart.

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I feel like blogging now. I'm all by myself at home. I mean really alone, with no one around. I did wrote out my heart felt words on the book just now and i guess i'm a little better now. Just a little. Just as i want you to be here, you're not. Oh well. I'm just as unimportant. I don't rank the first in your heart, but the second. How saddening. But its ok. I need time alone.

Thank God I found you, i was lost without you. My every wish and every dream somehow became reality. When you brought the sunlight, you completed my whole life. I'm overwhelmed with gratitude cause baby, i'm so thankful i found you. I was so desolate before you came to me. I was all by myself for the longest time. So cold inside and the hurt from the heartache, would not subside. I'm sorry.

I'm a sick child. Thanks to the person who passed it to me. This feeling sucks. =/